HEYYS, blog.
Since i got depression and said by people for not updating my blog.

So yeahs, just wanna share something with you people.

MY NAME IS HUILING!

and ya, i have NO PHONE currently.
because i could not afford for the phone bill.
So i decided not to have one.

My daily rountine if you want to find me.
[Not advised to find me if you just want to see me; THANKS]

Moday ;
SCHOOL -
-English coaching
-Speech day parade
-HOME

Tuesday ;
SCHOOL
-CHEM CLASS
-NOTHING,
maybe wander around.
-JW LIBRARY Till 7+

Wednesday ;
SCHOOL
-HOME
-Maybe ART ROOM
-JW LIBRARY till 7+

Thursday ;
SCHOOL
-BIO CLASS
-HOME
-TUTION at clementi till 10+

Friday ;
SCHOOL
-CHINESE class
-focused test
-CCA
-HOME
-TUTION

Saturday ;
HOME
-COS [for your info, it's at bukit timah]
-HOME about 10+

Sunday ;
HOME
-JW/NATIONAL LIBRARY

You could find me in this places if you can't contact me.

You could also find me, though email and MSN
ling_1661993@hotmail.com

Friendster/Facebook.

Done with my info telling.
It's story telling now.
I am going to tell you a bedtime story, so make sure you brush your teeth and be ready on the BED!

Time flew, NOW MARCH ENDING !
I got to buck up!

Firstly, i want to congrats those people who pass SNCO course.
AMALINA, DON, HAMZILAH, XINYU and etc [ WEIWANG]
I'm sure you all are very happy, because i do for you.

Next, i want to talk about the NCO camp.
In that, I want to say sorry to all CLT that i wasn't there when they need me.
Actually, to be true.
I didn't really know what to do on the first day.
When they left the AVA room for chapteh, i ask Ma'am what i need to do.
Ma'am told me to stay in the AVA room and if I want to do homework, I can!
So, i stayed.
Then, i went to front gate to fetch peixuan into the school.
She want to give something to ma'am.
Ma'am still ask me to show peixuan around the school.
Somemore that time my body don't know what's wrong?
Here pain there pain.

I cried that day, due to some WOMAN who cut in to my guilt.

My self reflection that night ;

Today i cried. Just because of something i was pretty unhappy about. Atiqah and I already got letured by clt. Yet just now Ma'am want us to say sorry again. However, even if i didn't help in the morning, we too try to make out effort at the rescue thing! What's more she expect us to do. Rewind the time? What is done, it's already done! we can't change the past, yet do better for the future, isn't it?





























The fire. CAN YOU SAVE IT?

I didn't have a good sleep for both days.

I was sick on the last day. I almost vomit, but didn't.
feel like having slight fever, feeling dizzy [fainting kind] ,cough and flu. which i still having flu now, but feeling better.
Went home and rest. Didn't went to tuition at night.

I'm having holiday which don't look like or even feel like one.
I'm like outside everyday.
Monday to Friday, I'm stuck in school for cca and extra class.
The only day I enjoy most is Saturday.

Now my mood was like suffering from a bad depression, or can say already suffering.
Can't deny i cried again today.
I almost feel like taking a knife, STAB into my heart and cause immediate death just now.
I wanted to run away from home, but i have no where to run but hide in the library.
Was there alone in a emolaization and depression mode.
Hungry go eat prata alone, boring went jurong point walk alone.
Myabe I'm still here because god told me to.
BECAUSE I HEAVN'T REALLY GONE THOUGH WHAT LIFE REALLY WAS LIKE!

I reached home about 9+ reaching 10.

I wanted to cry the whole day, but i couldn't find a suitable place.
I didn't do it, cause i want to be strong.
I wanted to shout, but people will think I'm crazy.
There's still so much thing i need to do.